Edward Meinert and some random notes.

EM:"I think there is a problem with my car and I don't want to put the money into fixing it."
EMSR:"That is what happens when you buy expensive cars, they are expensive to fix."
EM:"Thanks dad."

Sometimes you can overlook something or the way past events have altered course; this results in you mistaking the simplicity and elegance of what is in front of you.

Every man needs a vice or three.


"The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue centerlight pop and everybody goes "Awww!"

Sometimes they are slow, but those routines are what makes it, whether in real-time or in reflection.

Sometimes you just aren't really there. You are having a conversation, you are listening, but you are just not there. You are waiting for something to happen or you are thinking about how to make something happen. You are contemplating how to make that next step occur. And then it does. There is a second to adjust, a second to reflect. But it has happened and you are surprised.

You think about it. Even when the moment is gone, you think about how to get back there. You start to wonder and dream. Is it all possible? Indeed limits do not apply?

Finding those meanings, is not always easy. What makes it so hard? Maybe it is english, our double meanings, our nuiance, our metaphors?

How much lead time do you need to complete projects? Sometimes, I just can't get engaged. I get distracted. I blame it on email, IM, cell phones and everything that distracts. But, when I get on a roll, there is no stopping me.

I think it is very difficult for people to digest Catholic beliefs. On many levels I can understand this and as for most things, I think this is rooted in a misunderstanding of what these teachings mean for Catholics.

There are many views of the Church that are difficult to digest, particularly in the context of a modern world. The question becomes for me, not so much who is right or wrong, but what is the nature of religion and its teachings? It almost becomes a very simple question: what is the point?

I have included in my blog some words on this, not my own, but of the Pope and from the Bible. For me, the nature of the answers is one focused on perspective. My perspectives are derived from faith. The Oxford English Dictionary defines faith as trust and confidence, to believe implicitly.

What is the point? To aspire towards ideals. To live our lives in a nature that exposes and emphasizes the best parts of who we are. To love unconditionally, to be compassionate, to forgive, no matter what. To improve and to challange ourselves.

Can we do this without faith? Can we do this without structured beliefs? Perhaps. But as I reflect on the secular world in which we live, I question this. It is not that I am transfixed on harshly examining the world; I believe there is a lot of beauty in a what we have and I cherish it. But I do not accept things as they are. I question our choices and I believe things could be much better if we focused more on our ideals. Do you?

Did you catch the Kentucky Derby yesterday? I have to admit it, this is the first time in my entire life that I watched this event live. It does look like good fun and I enjoyed the shots of women in hats and sourthern gentlemen equally dressed (sans hats).

So this horse that won, what was his name? Who cares. A cheer for the underdog!

Doesn't mean that we have to be held back. Restrained by circumstance or triumph or disappointment. Adapt. Grow. Reach out.

We are confronted with these thoughts over and over again, but we fail to embrace change. Why? Why is it required that we take such a simple or obvious path?

It is not a good thing to allow ourselves to be governed by pettiness, but think about all the unspoken apologies. The regret. As much allowances as we must make for others, the realization and desire for change must come from that person. Think different?